Plain Jane has a what?!?!?

After 3 years of infertility, now learning how to be a mom.

Tuesday, September 20, 2005

Better late than never.

As promised (I know, I know, I promised these weeks ago), here are the pictures from the NTS.

My sister swears she sees little boy parts in the pics. I think it's too early to say for sure. I guess we'll all have to wait until March to see what comes out.

Feeling much better as of late, I am quite thankful for the placenta. Husband says I was a wee bit irritable the last few weeks of the first trimester. I guess I can agree with him. Today is 16w2d. I have a regular appt. on Monday. It's been way too long since the last one.

Tuesday, September 06, 2005


Dead baby thoughts.

It's hard being in transition. I'm not getting the weekly ultrasounds I was getting a couple weeks ago and I'm not far enough along to be comforted by the kicks to my bladder. I still fit, quite comfortably I might add, in all of my pre-pregnancy clothes. I rented a doppler, but I think it might be more trouble than it's preventing. See, I'm a big girl and I think that's making it more difficult to hear the heartbeat. I think I've only really heard it once. So, of course, every time I can't find it I have DBTs.

I know that logically there shouldn't be anything wrong. I haven't had any bleeding, cramping, or the like and every u/s I've had has been perfect. Everything's measuring where it should be, heartbeat visible, movement visible, etc. (at least as of last u/s 1 1/2 weeks ago). But it's all the things that I'm not experiencing that drive me crazy. I mean, shouldn't I look at least a little pregnant at 14+ weeks. Maybe I'm expecting too much. This is my first child and I know that's probably why I haven't started showing yet, but damn those evil Fertility Friend message boards and all the ladies on there posting belly pics much less farther along than I am, but showing much more.

I think the thing that freaks me out the most is not hearing the heartbeat on the monitor. I'm driving my husband crazy and I'm proving my mom right. My mom said it would be a bad idea to rent a doppler because it would drive me crazy if I couldn't find it and guess what, it has.

So, thanks for listening to a big, whiny post. WAH!